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[winterfrosting]

DC is usually patrolling or at Pure Vanilla's house. But poking his notebook will always eventually get his attention!

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[purevanillacookie]

[ Oh, his heart. Both the thing and the man. His expression can't help but crumble a little as he reaches up as his husbands hand lowers, to curve his palm against his cheek. To wipe away the tears that flow there. ]

I'm sorry, my love. I so often delve into what I can give of myself for others, that I do not lay my eyes upon the suffering I may be causing in the people I love the most by doing so.

[ Or, if he does, he considers it a small price to pay for the betterment of everyone. Ah, his alternate memories tell him how easily he could have followed Lily, because he's truly a lot like her in some things. He tugs Cacao's face down so their foreheads rest together, his other hand coming up as well to slide back into his husbands hair, careful not to pull the braid out. But to merely take a hold on him. ]

You do far more for me than you realize, or that I may vocalize. Your presence has been the strength I've been leaning on this entire time, or I would not have had it for my decisions. I... I fear that means I have taken you for granted, that willpower of yours to hold me up. I am truly sorry.

[ He drags his hand against Cacao's face again, then tilts to kiss the tears away. ]

The little piece of Jam may quiet the hole in me the loss of my own has caused, but it has always been you that has been what holds me up the most. You are my strength.

[winterfrosting]

[He rests his head against Vanilla's, eyes closing and taking in strength from his words. He does not know if Lily has had a similar conversation with him yet- not since the one they were both there for. He knows she is not one to not speak her thoughts when she found them important.

But also the two mages are... painfully similar. He lost them both that long ago day. He could not bear it again.]

But do not forget you are mine as well. My Resolution stands as long as I have something. Someone. To protect and fight for. I beg you, do not break my heart, Vanilla.

[purevanillacookie]

I will never break your heart, my love. I promise.

[ Though he's unsure of how strong he can be for Cacao now, the Resolution on his finger that pulses with a beat that matches Cacao's heart helps bolster the idea that he can. It emboldens him, helps him make a decision.

His voice is soft, for Cacao only. ]

I have given all I can give to this world. For you, for Lily, I shall give no more. What is of me as I am now is entirely yours. I vow this, my heart. My world.

[winterfrosting]

[he sighs so deeply it sounds like he's deflating]

Thank you. Like you told me to trust the fresher cookies, trust me and Lily to continue your efforts. And not just us.

[purevanillacookie]

[ The noise breaks his heart. How long has Cacao been needing to hear that? He shifts his arms to hold Cacao down to him tighter, soothing his hands over the braid, and turning to kiss his ear gently. ]

I trust you. With everything. And I'm sorry.